i've noticed how people have expressed how tired they are. tired of trying, tired of school, tired of being the same person they've always been. that sux huh? i dunno if i'm tired yet. i think i want to keep on trying. life is so full of challenges. i dont think giving up is the way to handle things. i wanna call someone. someone i could really have a good conversation with, not so much a one-sided issue. i dont like feeling like i have to keep asking questions to get them to stay on or that i'm keeping them from other work or fun that they need to be doing. it's strange how the person who calls me the most on my cell is not a friend from cali, IL, or here, but a person who started as a friend of a friend who lives in another state. freakish at times but it doesn't seem to bother him. and yeah it's not like we have the most inspirational conversations, he's usually multitasking.
on another note, i've decided i definitely want to do something for my birthday. the last time i had a party was...4th grade...we went to Chuck E. Cheese's. that was fun! but i think i'll ixnay the party idea. after organizing 7 french club meetings i think a little break is in order. yanno since every meeting was like a par-tay woooo! lol. i'm happy how they turned out, seemed more lively than last year's. i still wish the french club going to la maison de crepe went thru and we had only been talking about it for oh 7 months but... must... remember.... it's not....my responsibility...anymore. that wasn't mine in the beginning but ANYWAY...i think i'm going blog crazy... uh yeah birthday thing umm... June 14th is actually on a saturday this year so i think that'd be a good date to do something. don't you? *stares out at no one*.

it's the little things that entertain me. i feel like one of those elderly women who need to go on their afternoon strolls in the garden to be happy.